My children

They'll only be little once. Focus on their hearts and who they are. They are gifts from God. He will take care of them. He has blessed you with the opportunity to raise them for Him! What an awesome responsibility! They are people that deserve respect, but they are not little adults. They are children.

My sweet girl Makenzie. She is her momma through and through. She is very maternal and loving. She is quietly adventurous. She is slowly climbing out of her shell and standing on the edge of childhood. She is putting herself out there to meet new people. I'm so proud of how much she has grown in the past year. She is strong willed and strong minded. She knows exactly what she wants and how she wants it. She loves her brother, but is really having a hard time with his new found mobility and curiosity.

 Oh, Parker and his sweet, mischievous smile. Oh, how I love that boy. He is T.R.O.U.B.L.E., but I don't care. I love him so much. He melts my heart when he wraps his arms around my legs in an attempt to get my attention. He gives me a little flirty grin that says, "pick me up...you know you want to," and he's right, I do.

PicMonkey.com

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Editing really makes a difference. Hard to believe it's the same photo! So thankful to have stumbled upon PicMonkey.com since Picnic is no longer available.

Mother's Day 2012

This is my sweet girl on Mother's Day. Hubby and Makenzie woke me up with breakfast in bed (which I ate in the dining room). She gave me this precious card that she had written all by herself! My husband wrote on her chalkboard and she wrote it on the card. I was so impressed! Eric and Makenzie went to church while Parker and I stayed home since he was still suffering with a yucky virus. We spent time outside on a blanket in the grass and enjoyed the beautiful weather.

I gave myself a pedicure with the best fingernail polish I've ever used. I NEVER go to the salon to get my nails done. I love the look, but not the process or the price. So here's my "at home" pedi for $6(Walmart)! btw, my nails are not navy blue like the picture they're "FRUITY PETTUTIE!" Even my hubby said he liked it!

After a lovely dinner of grilled chicken sandwiches my husband and I watched "The Vow." It was a great way to finish a great day.

Just another day

Every week I drown in dirty dishes, unfinished laundry, and a VERY long "to-do" list. Every week is the same. I say that I'm not going to let it happen again, but by Wednesday I'm back where I said I was never going again. Just when I think I could wean myself off of the antidepressant medicine I take everyday I start exhibiting depressive behavior...AGAIN. I must say the worst thing about the medicine I take is that I can't cry. Physically I can not cry. Emotionally I want to, but the tears won't come. I used to be able to cry on command. Not any more. I actually miss crying. It can be such a good release. My mom and my husband both like me on "happy pills," but I'm feeling less and less like myself. However, if it will keep the anger at bay then I'll stay on it as long as I need to. My anger was uncontrollable and that is a very scary thing for myself and my children.