Sunday, July 22, 2012

Being a Mom


 I have the best job in the world. I get to be their Mom. I get to be their soft place to land when things are tough. I can only hope to be their best friend. What a blessing and an honor it is to have Mom as my title. I get to kiss their "boo-boos" and pray over them when they're sick. I often hear that being a stay at home mom is the hardest job in the world. Although I agree, it's not the Mom part that's hard. It's the managing of the household and being present as a mother that is hard. It's hard to get past the guilt. Oh there is so much guilt! I feel it about how much time I spend on the computer, doing dishes, and cleaning house while my children entertain themselves. So often I neglect the aforementioned duties and just play with my children. I love playing with them, but there has to be balance to accomplish all of my responsibilities. I want my children to have an amazing childhood full of love, creativity, traditions, and family togetherness. I want them to remember that I played with them. I want them to know that I love them with all of my heart. I want to be a role model for them. I want them to understand that with passion and hard work anything is possible. It's easy to say. Now I need to go live it.

Thursday, July 19, 2012

I am blessed to have many things in my life that I love. For example, my sweet husband, Eric, my beautiful daughter, Makenzie, and my precious son, Parker. Now I have a new love...running! I've always wanted to be a runner. I enjoyed running as a teenager, but had no idea that it was considered a sport. My husband is home during the summer so that has allowed me to pursue the wish of becoming a runner. Now don't get me wrong, "I am not a runner," yet. I have been staying up after feeding Parker early in the morning and going for a run. The morning is so beautiful! I get to turn my music up and turn my mommy brain OFF. It's awesome! I walk until I feel capable of running and then I run until I can't any longer. It is such a feeling of freedom to leave the house with the my sleeping children in the care of my husband. I don't take my cell phone or even house keys. It's just me and my ipod. Unfortunately my ipod won't communicate with my computer so I can only listen to the music I put on it five years ago. But, it's still great. I sing. I run. I'm free. My mood is better on the days I exercise. It honestly works better than my anti-depression medicine. It even makes the rest of my day better. My self esteem is better. I make better food choices. It also gives me a ton of energy. Way more than a cup of coffee provides.